I don't know why today i feel vvvvvv distracted.Why,Pre-lim are like in 7 days more.Fuck,and i feeling distracted.Why,the days are coming.But i not prepare yet.I don't know why.I don't want to take pre-lim.I don't know what is stop my heart from studying.Sometimes,i don't even feel like doing my work.I just want to put my head down and rest.Why am i like that.Fuck,i lost my motivation.Where have it gone.I got to find it back in the shortest time.Before Prelim.I feel so stress.What am i doing now a day.

Today school was extremly long.I don't want i find it vvvvvv long.I hate you lah,idiot lam.Want to change me and partner place.You think changing us,there no way we can talk.But we have alot of matter of talking.Are you jealous.Sometimes,i think the best part of school is recess.When you can laugh like there no tomorrow.Play,like the school is a playground,Scream like nobody is hearing.When to Spotlight with Amanda Ng,Amanda Neo,Abigail F and Ilina.Left around 6.When to meet rachel to collect something.When home.

Cibe,are you alright.I heard from R that you are in the Hosiptal in LA.Omgzzz,why are you silly.You still can love her.But why go drink,drive and get into a accident.You know she show us the teddy bear you give her.I know what you tell me.That you going love her silently.Why,did you drink till you are drunk.Aren't you silly.Now i heart there a hole in your heart.I know you did so many things for her.But do you know i R and me tried our best to talk to her.Hopefully,she wake up from her sense.And knowning you are always there from her no matter what.You even willing to skip school and fly to Singapore just because of her.You done so much to her,i promise you that she will come to you.Okay,please stop doing all this silly things by smoking,drinking.And stuff,and when don't fight with her anymore.It just hurt her heart a lot.She feel guilty when she heard you landed in the hospital.And when she told you she when Malaysia not to see Kiro.But she when with her dad.Hopefully,you get well soon.

I suddenly feel so lost.I don't know why.To many things are bothering my heart.Like how Best said try to block all the things that are affecting my studies.But how,no matter how hard i tried to block it.It keep coming back and hurt double the pain.Sometimes,you give your full heart to someone whom you love alot.But when your heart comes back to you.Is all in broken pieces.You wish it was like a puzzle.So you can mend it back by putting everything together.But it not,no matter how hrd you try to mend it prefectly it never the same has how it use to be.Life is hard to live this past few days.No matter how hard you tried to laugh,smile.It will always hurt inside.

Sharon took the What are you hiding from people? quiz and the result is Emotions

You tend to laugh and joke around when you are with everyone, but you feel lonely and empty when are all alone. you cry alone when you have stress and problems. you often have many problems that are bugging you, but you never show them out on your face. you are not as cheerful as they thought, but you just don't wish to spoilt the mood of everyone, hence you hide your emotions inside. you are just a weak human with feelings afterall.

I did this quiz in FB,and it really said that truth.

I'm sick and tired of lending you my heart and letting you break it over and over again.

Fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck.

I hate myself to the fucking core.I hate myself,i really do.Why do i even exist in this world.Why,tell me why.I feel so fucked up now.My life is all messed up,i hate my fucking life.I hate it,i really do.Do you know how much i really wish i can be someone else.Because my life is so fucked up.I hate it,i reallyreally can't stop blaming myself.For everything.How much more can i ever hate my fucking life.My life is a 100% life,but do you know how much i hate myself,90000000000000000%,that how much i really hate being me and how much i hated my life.Why must i carry leaving in this fucking life.My life,is a shit/crap/stupid/fuck/ life.Do you know understand anot.I reallyreally hate myself.I can never forgive what have i been doing to people around me.Now i realise how am i like.I ruin my life i ruin everybody one.I hate myself.I want to kill myself.Because i hate my this fucking life.This life 16 years i when through this fucking life.Which bring so many upset things.I'm always running away from everything.And throwing it to all my friend.What a friend am i,what a fucking friend am i.I wonder,I hate to lose all my friend,All my good friend,all my best friend.That have been through what i have.If only i can disappear from this world.And they won't be so much trouble.Right,i hate myself.And i won't forgive myself.

I hate myself,i hate myself,i hate myself,i hate myself,i hate myself,i hate myself,i hat myself.
I hate my life,i hate my life,i hate my life,i hate my life,i hate my life,i hate my life,i hate my life.
I hate love,i hate love,i hate love,i hate love,i hate love,i hate love,i hate love,i hate love.
I hate feelings,i hate feelings i hate feelings,i hate feelings,i hate feelings,i hate feelings.
I hate loving you,i hate loving you,i hate loving you,i hate loving you,i hate loving you.
I hate living in this world,i hate living in this world,i hate living in this wold.

I hate everything about me.That all i know.

I vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv upset with you
Hopefully you know who are you.

Finally i meet up with Clara the STUPIDDZZZZ Cowww.I miss her like super aloooooot.After Church.She came over to my house.I took my homeworks and clothes and bus-ed down to her house.Had lunch,talk alot about some things.When to her house.I when swimming and tanning.But sadly i didn't get tanned.Unfairrrrrrrrr,When up to ther house and shower.When down again to study.When i was doing my maths homework.I put my maths worksheet down.Suddenly the wind blew it.And it drop on the floor then the pool and i was screaming my homework,my homework and how awesome it all wet.Wanted to get my paper.But i keep going further.There this kind little girl help me take me paper.Clara kept laughing non-stop.Tried to dry my paper,but it took awhile.And some part torn.Left around 6 plus.Bus-ed home.Nearly fell asleep on the bus luckily got _ to talk to me so i won't miss my stop.Going over to Clara house soon again.

In the Morning meet Jasmine F, and Zareena for Breakfast at Macdonal.Headed to school saw Ilina at her bus-stop.When to D&T room first.When up to class and the door was lock.Tooopidzzzz,waited for Mr RuLee to come.Jasmine F called him.He answered but didn't talk.And he didn't put down till we shouted at him within a distance.When to the FishTank room there and waited for him.It wzas super hotzzzzz.So we played with his MacBook.We played PHOTOBOOTH.When Mr RuLee was coming we block his way not letting him to come.We wanted to put our pictures as the wallpaper.Funnyzzzz,Tutorials was awesome.Laugh alot,If you think Mr RuLee is a nice guy,you got it all wrong.When to 85 Market to have lunch.After that headed to Tampines with Ilina.Meet Anita and Javen.Saw _ at the arcade.Wanted to go in.But can't.Because i'm wearing school unifrom.Thank you Anita for lending me your hoodie.Wear fbt and hoodie into the arcade.Watch them play the Basketball.And anita prefume is strong.Left with Ilina.Train-home.

Sometimes,i think some people are foolish by learning to smoke or starting smoking.

I tend to become powerless in your sight.