I'm meeting Joanna for Night Study later.

Yesterday.I'm finally done with my freaking suspension.I thought i will be all alone in the room.Day-dreaming and sleep even more.And stare into space.But at least there is two other girls.From 1/3.We were having fun.Talking,laughing,eating sweet togther.And talking about one whole bunch of rubbish.After school.When to find Ilina.When home with her.Because i'm being a guai kid.Like finally.Nothinng much happen.

Today,Mr H was having PMS.After school when to Parkway with Chanel and Joanna.I needed to get Balloon.Omgg,i reallyreally hate 17.Bloddy hell,I don't understand why can't they make bloody more buses for us.One freaking bus is going back and fore 24 hours a day.At least make more buses.So people won't be late,and don't need to squeeze like crazy.Then people who are major inconsiderate.They refuse to move in.And people will blame us that we didn't move in.Seriously,look who isn't moving in.Bloody shit,Cab with Amanda Ng,Marissa,Chanel and Joanna to Tamp.Took 15 to Parkway.Saw ___.Omggg,When we are at one play.It look like gelyang.But only no that kind of cheena woman clinging on old ah pek.Then when 2 cheena man came up the bus.Omgggz,The cheena man seat on the chair as if.He buy it.No wonder Singapore is polluted by them.Ask them go home to their country lah.Saw a lot of major turn off people.Created a song for them.When to get Balloons.People keep staring.Like wtf,Haven't they see people holding Balloons.When over to Macs to have lunch.Saw double major turn off people.Goodness,I wonder how they really see this kind of turn off people.Never mind,i understand turn off people luvvvv to be with turn off people.When back to Parkway,Joanna printed some picture.Then this cheena came up and "scolded me".Bloody Cheena.Pollute Singapore only.When home first,and get ready.Meet Anita and Jy,later.Anita keep saying about the Balloon.What an ass is she,then they keep saying the Balloon vvvv irrating.Idiot,When to buy the cake for Ilina.Cab over to Ilina place,we trick her like manymany times,First was Anita told her that she was going to study.She won't have time for her to celebrate.Then it was JY,Because we don't know what block or where she stay.Then we said that their coach wants for some reason.Then when we were in the cab,We kept laughing at her.When to her block downstairs.And make a Happy Birthday Day with Candles.Idiot,there was a lot of cats.Walking here and there.Then there this cat who keep following us.I get scream and run to hide somewhere.Her house area the wind was super strong.We keep lighting up like don't how many times,Still fail.And people keep staring at us.Then her brother came down and help us.So we gave up and make a heart shape for her.Then we take a long long strings.And put at the Balloon.And make it fly up to Ilina house.It really nice,She came down crying.Because she was extremly touch.Pack up,and when up to her house.Sit at the staircase.Omgzzz,I luvvv her neighbour dog.Super cute,Really.She cut the cake and sit with us at the Staircase.ANITA CHOO,YOU THIS MAJOR GROSS GIRL.SPIT YOUR WATER AT ME.AND ILINA.Stupid,JY took my unglam.I ask her to delete but she refuse.Then we want to Anita give Ilina a birthday kiss.So Jy is me push them togther.How nice they hit each other.So they when in one lift.We took another one.So they have the only time.Bus home with them.Tomorrow is ILINA BIRTHDAY.

I envy people that can be very strong even though how much hurt they when through.Even how fragile is their inside.They can always be strong.I want to be them one day.No matter how fragile is my heart.I got to stay strong.Knowing,that living in my life is hard.Knowing that life is stupid and stuff.I got to be strong.And show that i can be a happy kid.And not a sad kid.I want to ask people,will you want to believe a bunch of lies or you want to believe what the person said face-to-face.I know,if the truth come out.My fragile heart will break into a million and billion pieces.I already trying to mend it back.Day by day,i try my best.Without looking back at those memories i had.If i look back at all those hurting things i been through.I realise i'm silly.Why,I want to have a strong outer look.And no a fragile heart anymore.

"Stay strong no matter what that outcome is"

Spellz AWESOME for Grad Night.

Pictures will be uploaded soon.

Update more on Grad Night Later.

I haven't been blogging.Because i had a mini-cold-war with my mum.She being unreasonable.Taking all my freedom of being an TEENAGER.Sometimes,i don't understand why must parents be like that.They claim they care for us.Pfft,How do you want us to believe whether is true or not.I think when you are living in a Teenager Life.There many ups and down.The most support we wanted is from our parent's.But do they give us the best support or give us shit.

On Thrusday,Fish.Amanda and Me and the whole day spend in RTC due to CHEEBYE.Stupid word.You make us both sit down there for hours and plenty more hours.Like crazy.Ass hurt after seating so long.All i did is stare at people,Read the book,sleep,read book,sleep,and laugh.Mr Lee called the "Rainbow Club" and it all started when PEOPLE got caught for luminous orange bra and Mr Lee Said "I think you have a fetish for old men touching you all over".Idiot man.I still got one more day of stupid suspension.How nice,i'm going to sit alone.And think of some stuff.And sleep again.I don't know why sleeping as become a habit.Stupid sleeping.
Today is the "last day of school".Tomorrow is Grad Night already.How time passes so fast.I realise,4 years just when pass like ZOOM.Whether you knowing it.Already 4 long years.I will miss 4/1 the best.No matter how much ups and down we all when through.At least we don't leave people behind.We help them get up and walk togther.I miss all the awesome time we had,all the endless laugther we had,all the silly mini-fight we had,all the crazy time in P.E,all the fun time making class time fun,all the fun we had in 85 market with the Soya Bean and Susan dad food.And manymany things will be left behind.I think i be crying like a waterfall.Without tissue to clean my stupid tears up.I WANT TO GIVE A HUG TO EVERYONE TMR.Hopefully,you can feel my warm hug.

I remember on Youth Mission day.Wednesday,It really fun.It was funny and fun.Youth Mission brought people friendship back togther as one.I realise that,i ruin a friendship between you.I didn't know who to write at the moment.Untill the sound in my is calling your name.I was stupid enough to ruin a friendship.All the fun and laugther we had.Can never be earse.Now,Maybe we are not close as last time.But i want to said i'm sorry.For all the hurt i cause you to have.I realise i'm a bad friend.That took something away from you.Which i shouldn't.I'm sorry.

School ended at 11.Had P.E and science only.Today i didn't have suspension.I got to serve on monday.Pfft,Why can't they let me do a like 1 or 2 hrs on suspension first.So on monday.I won't die at RTC.Because i got no one to laugh with or talk.I will be a lonely kid :( Who wants to join me :) P.E was fuuuun.Captain Ball is always fun with the people you playing with.Without 4/1 there won't be any fun.After school.Didn't want to go for Grad Rehearsal.We are going to Amanda Ng house to do our prettyzz nail.When Ilina,Amanda Ng,Marissa and me was on the bus.When we got down the bus.People started calling,said that Mr Lee is angry come back.CB,when back for last then 5 mins.Waste of time only can.When like some many people didn't come.After that bus down to Amanda Ng house.Did our nails.Muffin is so HYPER.

I wish i could said i love you.

Today is a holiday.Yayyy,I watch The Devil wears Prada.This morning.It a nice show,Got watch if you want to be a Fashion Designer.Wanted to go Town with Amanda and co.But mummy said NO!Freak,she said i got to studystudystudy how nice.Late afternoon Liane ask me whether want to accompany her cut her hair.So Mummy mood suddenly change.She said unless i follow her to Interchange to get the groceries.Then I'm allow to go.She keep holding me back.Like she rufuse to let me go.Rush down to meet Liane.At N2.The shop she wanted to cut was close.So we when to another shop.The lady cut her hair as if she didn't.There this young girl with her mum doing her nail.How cute,It started to rain.Liane was upset that her hair was really short.CHEER UP.Bus down to TM.While talking to Liane.Heard my name.Bump onto Yushan.She the one who called me.Liane said she look like Mark.When LJS,Bump onto Yan Ling.She look blur when she saw us.Take away and headed to some block and eat.Talk about Camp,love and etc.When to meet her Didi.I play Date or Ditch again.Then her Didi and friends left.So we left too.When to her house for awhile.Her dad drive me home.Thank you Uncle.Talk a lot on the car.Laugh togther due to some reason on the radio.There school tomorrow.5 more days to Grad Night.I haven't get my heels.How,i scared i don't know how to walk how.I scared i laugh when i shaking the hands how.I pray to GOD that i'm shaking Mr Lee one.

I just want to love you,like how others do.