Giving someone all your love is never assurance that they'll never love you back. Some people are just not meant to be in your life, No matter how much you want them to be. You hug him good-bye like it's nothing. While all you want to do is to hold on forever. I used to smile when I told people that you were mine. But now, I can't even smile and say your name at the same time. As much as I love you, I have to said goodbye. Cause I know you will be happier if I let you go. I'm sorry if I make you cry, I'm sorry if tears fall for your eyes. But remember, for every tears that fell from your eyes, Two fell from mine. Missing you isn't the hardest part, Knowing I once had you is what break my heart. I'll never forget the times we once shared, And I always remember how much you once cared. Now it's over, It's time to move on. It's never easy to see you turning back. But,I have to take the pain and cry all the way home cause I know it will never be the same. I know when you leave, Distance will keep us apart. But distance, No matter how far, Can't change these feelings in my heart. Just turn your head when you see me, I will understand. One day, I will be able to look you in the eyes. Without feeling pain I've caused you. I hope in time, You will be happy as you called my name, Once again. Happiness is to far for us now. But even it's near, I know it will be hard for us to get there. Baby it's never gonna work out. I love you, Goodbye.

-Unknown.

Sigh,I make my choice already. I hate having choices in life.Is either this or that. Have you ever hate this feeling. If I don't get it my courses (Chio touch wood) I will take the 2nd batch during April or Maybe I take Privates N's and O's. I make a very big desicion. Which I can't turn back already. Sigh,Hopefully I will get into Applied Food Science in Simei. I don't want to go Macperson. Is so OMGZ, And I got no friends there :( I be alone girl during break time and class time. Sigh, I wish some of my friends will be there too. All I have to do now is wait,wait,wait. Urghh. I hope that during the first day of school. I will make new friends,So I won't feel lonely.I'm afraid of making new friends there. Because people ther super duper scary. Hopefully,I will find nice good friends that I can trust. And maybe new besfriends. But nothing can compare to my friends in SAC. They're always the best of all. I think I lost my Ez-Link card again :( Sigh,I hate myself,I hate me,I hate life,But I love GOD in heaven because I know he washing his blessing onto me.Thank you GOD. On a brighter note,BABEE IS COMING BACK TOMORROW.Like finally,After so long.Yees.I missz her a lot. But I'm not sure whether I'm fetching her anot.Sigh,I need to go Macperson Campus to get everything done :( I need to get a photo taken for my ez-link card. I don't care I must look nice in it.I'm not going to push my fringe away :>

Please Father God,I really hope you will grant my wish lord. I really hope my Applied Food Science is approved. Please Lord. I beg you, I really counting on you lord.Make my dreams come true Lord. Like how you make it during N's level result day. You make everyone cried with a tears of JOY.Yes,Lord will you make it happen again,Will you let me cry with tears of JOY? Please Lord. I promise you anything. I really hope you will grant py prayer lord. Thank you. Amen.

I didn't get in to the 10 course,I pick :( So I'm appeling for another course.Let's pray hard that I'm able to go in,Cross Fingers.Or I will take Private O's. This so stress,I got to take,English,Elementary Maths, Combined Science (Physics/Chemistry),Combined Humanities (Geography/History) and Principle of Accounts. Damn,I really hope I manage to get in the courses I appel for.Because GOD will help me,I really hope everything will turn out alright.Thank you GOD,Amen.

28th Dec 09' (Darshana Babee Sweet-Sex-Teen)

Meet Rachel at Bedok Inter first.Saw Lisa.Took bus 31 to Tanah Merah.When over to the control station to wait for Rachel friends,Sharmaine came first.Then followed by Petrina,Then Deesha,Rehka,ShanTien(Is it right?),then Joy.We keep calling Darshana house and handphone.Nobody pick up.We got really afraid.She not at home.Bus down to her place.Everyone was getting everything ready.So Rachel and I thought she was staying at the 2nd floor.Rang the wrong bell.So Paiseh.It was at the 3rd Floor.Nobody was home.So we waited for awhile more.Suddenly the lift came up to the 3rd floor.Saw Darshana :) She when home first,Run down to tell everyone get ready.Sang her a birthday song,She got so touch.Cake fight,Push Darshana down the baby pool.ZhiTing came late.When up to her house and have Pizza,Dounts,Two cakes.HAHA,One day I will give birth little piggy.Keep laughing in the room like shitz,Please this game called Never or Ever.Super fun,Keep laughing.This people are so friendly and funny,Really like JOY.HAHA. Hopfully you have fun Babeee. Picturez will be up soon.Maybe tomorrow

Yayyy,I painted a new colour on my nailz again :> Babyyy said I every week change colour.HAHA,Darshana Babee is finally back.Omgz,I missz her like shitz.Seriously,She when off country for so long since last month.But at least she back now.Tomorrow is her Bird-Day \M/ Her Sweet Sex-Teen.Going to Surprise her and her friends over at her house :> Thank you Mere and Babyy for the belated Christmas Card. Thank you Babyy for writing till your eyes pain :( HAHA,But I still love you. Don't worry,I will love you more then Melvin.Shhh,Don't tell him okay,Later he come and kill me :) FaceBook eat shitz luh.Urghh.Tomorrow is the result day :( Cross Fingers that we can go in the course we want.

I wanted to break your heart because I knew that I wasn't gonna be good enough for you. When you told me you like me I swooned and I fell hard. I felt like everything was going right for the first time in my life. But I just had to do it I had to lie to you; that I liked someone else. Because you're too good for me as in literally. You are smart and I'm not but now... I sort of wish I could turn back time and just tell you we weren't meant to be even if we had mutual feelings.