Giving someone all your love is never assurance that they'll never love you back. Some people are just not meant to be in your life, No matter how much you want them to be. You hug him good-bye like it's nothing. While all you want to do is to hold on forever. I used to smile when I told people that you were mine. But now, I can't even smile and say your name at the same time. As much as I love you, I have to said goodbye. Cause I know you will be happier if I let you go. I'm sorry if I make you cry, I'm sorry if tears fall for your eyes. But remember, for every tears that fell from your eyes, Two fell from mine. Missing you isn't the hardest part, Knowing I once had you is what break my heart. I'll never forget the times we once shared, And I always remember how much you once cared. Now it's over, It's time to move on. It's never easy to see you turning back. But,I have to take the pain and cry all the way home cause I know it will never be the same. I know when you leave, Distance will keep us apart. But distance, No matter how far, Can't change these feelings in my heart. Just turn your head when you see me, I will understand. One day, I will be able to look you in the eyes. Without feeling pain I've caused you. I hope in time, You will be happy as you called my name, Once again. Happiness is to far for us now. But even it's near, I know it will be hard for us to get there. Baby it's never gonna work out. I love you, Goodbye.

-Unknown.

Sigh,I make my choice already. I hate having choices in life.Is either this or that. Have you ever hate this feeling. If I don't get it my courses (Chio touch wood) I will take the 2nd batch during April or Maybe I take Privates N's and O's. I make a very big desicion. Which I can't turn back already. Sigh,Hopefully I will get into Applied Food Science in Simei. I don't want to go Macperson. Is so OMGZ, And I got no friends there :( I be alone girl during break time and class time. Sigh, I wish some of my friends will be there too. All I have to do now is wait,wait,wait. Urghh. I hope that during the first day of school. I will make new friends,So I won't feel lonely.I'm afraid of making new friends there. Because people ther super duper scary. Hopefully,I will find nice good friends that I can trust. And maybe new besfriends. But nothing can compare to my friends in SAC. They're always the best of all. I think I lost my Ez-Link card again :( Sigh,I hate myself,I hate me,I hate life,But I love GOD in heaven because I know he washing his blessing onto me.Thank you GOD. On a brighter note,BABEE IS COMING BACK TOMORROW.Like finally,After so long.Yees.I missz her a lot. But I'm not sure whether I'm fetching her anot.Sigh,I need to go Macperson Campus to get everything done :( I need to get a photo taken for my ez-link card. I don't care I must look nice in it.I'm not going to push my fringe away :>

Please Father God,I really hope you will grant my wish lord. I really hope my Applied Food Science is approved. Please Lord. I beg you, I really counting on you lord.Make my dreams come true Lord. Like how you make it during N's level result day. You make everyone cried with a tears of JOY.Yes,Lord will you make it happen again,Will you let me cry with tears of JOY? Please Lord. I promise you anything. I really hope you will grant py prayer lord. Thank you. Amen.

I didn't get in to the 10 course,I pick :( So I'm appeling for another course.Let's pray hard that I'm able to go in,Cross Fingers.Or I will take Private O's. This so stress,I got to take,English,Elementary Maths, Combined Science (Physics/Chemistry),Combined Humanities (Geography/History) and Principle of Accounts. Damn,I really hope I manage to get in the courses I appel for.Because GOD will help me,I really hope everything will turn out alright.Thank you GOD,Amen.

28th Dec 09' (Darshana Babee Sweet-Sex-Teen)

Meet Rachel at Bedok Inter first.Saw Lisa.Took bus 31 to Tanah Merah.When over to the control station to wait for Rachel friends,Sharmaine came first.Then followed by Petrina,Then Deesha,Rehka,ShanTien(Is it right?),then Joy.We keep calling Darshana house and handphone.Nobody pick up.We got really afraid.She not at home.Bus down to her place.Everyone was getting everything ready.So Rachel and I thought she was staying at the 2nd floor.Rang the wrong bell.So Paiseh.It was at the 3rd Floor.Nobody was home.So we waited for awhile more.Suddenly the lift came up to the 3rd floor.Saw Darshana :) She when home first,Run down to tell everyone get ready.Sang her a birthday song,She got so touch.Cake fight,Push Darshana down the baby pool.ZhiTing came late.When up to her house and have Pizza,Dounts,Two cakes.HAHA,One day I will give birth little piggy.Keep laughing in the room like shitz,Please this game called Never or Ever.Super fun,Keep laughing.This people are so friendly and funny,Really like JOY.HAHA. Hopfully you have fun Babeee. Picturez will be up soon.Maybe tomorrow

Yayyy,I painted a new colour on my nailz again :> Babyyy said I every week change colour.HAHA,Darshana Babee is finally back.Omgz,I missz her like shitz.Seriously,She when off country for so long since last month.But at least she back now.Tomorrow is her Bird-Day \M/ Her Sweet Sex-Teen.Going to Surprise her and her friends over at her house :> Thank you Mere and Babyy for the belated Christmas Card. Thank you Babyy for writing till your eyes pain :( HAHA,But I still love you. Don't worry,I will love you more then Melvin.Shhh,Don't tell him okay,Later he come and kill me :) FaceBook eat shitz luh.Urghh.Tomorrow is the result day :( Cross Fingers that we can go in the course we want.

I wanted to break your heart because I knew that I wasn't gonna be good enough for you. When you told me you like me I swooned and I fell hard. I felt like everything was going right for the first time in my life. But I just had to do it I had to lie to you; that I liked someone else. Because you're too good for me as in literally. You are smart and I'm not but now... I sort of wish I could turn back time and just tell you we weren't meant to be even if we had mutual feelings.

Days Babee is returing: 4 days (Y)

When to meet Yushan in the afternoon to pass her Bow Tie.She gave me Christmas Present.Thank you,Bus back to Bedok Inter.Waited for Babyyy like shitz.Took Bus 40 to Conerstone.There this stalker,Stalking Babyyyy.HAHA,My first new friend was AnnaBelle :) Conerstone is super livily and holy.All the people there super high.Really,Unlike mine,Like some died people. It was damn cold in the church. Christmas Service end around 7 plus. People started coming up and ask our names.Haha,I make a lot of new friends :) Everyone there is super friendly,Galye called me AngMo.HAHA.Happy Birthday Xiaoheng.Dinner with everyone.At Katong Shopping Center. Super funny,Keep laughing.Because Jermiah got called a pervert.HAHA,Left with Babyyy. Bus home. I'm going Conerstone next Sat again.Yayyyy :)

25th Dec 09' Christmas day ^^

When Church for service.I was late,Overslept.It was a combine service.This year I finally see more people unlike last year.HAHA,After Service when to pass my present :> Saw Samuel after so long.He MIA for like years.When home with Babbyyyy. When out to meet Chanel.On the bus saw (I can't rememeber name).Chanel couldn't see me till I called her name.When to Paris Ris.She got a lips pierce.Train to Orchard.Lunch at KFC,Super crowded.Walk around and Orchard is so cowded and it was raining.How awesome.When Wisma F21 to find my hairband but they don't sell :( But I bought this Ribbon Hair Clipp.Prettyzzzz,When over to ION,When to Rubi,Bought 2 braclets,shoes,and Ring then to 313 to find my hairband at F21.YAYYY.Saw Cherilynn and Tiffiny at 313.Omgz,I missz them like hell.HAHA,When walk around at Orchard Central.Coolz,they got 12 level.Home after that.At FEP,Saw Mrs J.HAHAHA.

Babe is returning in: 6 day :>

CHRISTMAS: 2 DAYS :>

\M/ Tomorrow is christmas eve already,Then after that is Christmas.Orchard feel so livly because of Christmas.I going to spend Christmas with my friends.Unlike the past few years.I spend with my family unwrapping present when the clock reach 12.But this year will be different.I don't care,I'm not going to be happy if I don't spend Christmas with my friends :> After Christmas 6 days to 2010.A new year,Do you realise how 2009 passes so fast.Is just like a blink of an eyes and 2009 is gone.Here come 2010.Let's hope it will be a better year. Sigh,Why must 2009 end so soon. OHHH,Yesterday I was going through some website.Is this movie coming out next year.I want to watch because there EMMA ROBERTS <3,

Taylor Lautner is so effing hot ttm :>

GoodNight Peekz.

Days till Babeee return : 7 days ^^

Christmas: 2 days :>

I haven't been going out lately.It suckz to stay at home and watch teevee.Sometimes,All I do is watch movie online.Sigh,This suckz.I want to go out.Maybe I should stay up at Orchard on Christmas Eve and wait till Chirstmas.I'm craving for,Subway :( I just watch Titanic.It doesn't bored me even if I watch a million and one time.I always cry when it come to the last part. That call true love. I suddenly missz Babyyy and Mere and someone :> Off to watch another movie.Sigh,My life is full of movie :(

Hi peekz,I'm at SIA Club with Daddy. I'm effing boredz. Luckily,there is internet connection here. Or I will die. It starting to get crowded. Sigh,Going to eat Astons with Daddy after he done with his stuff. Can you feel the spirit of Christmas. Is coming in 3 days time.I can't wait to celebrate. HAHA,I'm not done with my present :( Darshana BirdDay is coming. But it won't be a full Foursome. Because Babeee is not here :(

I'm bored.I watch Marley and Me.It was an awesome movie :)

Mr Santa ClausCAN I HAVE A DOG FOR CHRISTMAS.

Days Babe is coming Back: 8 days ^^

CHRISTMAS: 3 DAYS ^^

I know,I haven't been blooging lately.Christmas is coming,I'm not done with the present.HAHA,I been watching movies online.Is because,I'm bored that why,I watch movies to keep me busy.I want to go 313 F21.HAHA,Is a four level shop.I can go mad with Baabee there.I'm waiting for her to come back.YAYY,I really do missz her.But is alright,8 Days will past super fast.She always call me to see what happening in Singapore.HAHA,Omgz,I haven't pick finish my 10 courses.Sigh,This suckz.Mummy and Daddy is rushing.Tomorrow is the deadline.Maybe I have plan out my 9 choices.But what the last 1.Daddy,ask me whether I want to go Astons or Swensen.HAHA,I really don't know which one.HOW,HAHAH,I'm planning to drag Daddy to 313 F21 with me tomorrow :) It's been raining.I hope during Christmas Eve and Chirstmas it won't rain.I going to spend Chirtmas Eve and Christmas with my awesome friends.Should I go Church Christmas Eve party and Count down? Maybe I should.HAHA.Then I can ___ _____ ^^ My hair is taking forever to grow.GROW FASTER.

I'M A HAPPY KID ^^

I'm really scared.Because RESULT DAY IS TODAY! How,What if I didn't do well.CHIO TOUCH WOOD.Howwww,I'm really scared.I ask mummy will she be disappointed in me if I don't get good point she said yes :( HOWWWWWW.

I wish that someday our lives will unfold exactly how we want them to, and we'll end up living in a cozy house just outside the city, and I'll be a Broadway star and you'll keep doing what you love, and we'll have three children (one boy and two girls), and we'll live happily ever after. I would really like that, baby.

Days Babe is coming Back: 14 DAYS :(

Musical is in 3 days :)

Bazaar Weekend Christmas Special: 4 days ^^

Christmas: 10 days \M/

Still a long way,I really missz her.It been only like 2 days then she not in Singapore.She have been calling me from Philippines.She going to do her pretty hair.If I go Philippines with her.Confirm we will have a havoc time.HAHA,Babee,hurry fly back.I want to spend Belated Christmas with you ^^ I want to go for the Bazaar Weekend Christmas Special anyone? I need to get Christmas present SOON.I missz having long hair :(

I wish fixing a broken heart is as easy as solving a puzzle.

14th Dec 09'

Babeee is flying off today.Going to send her with Naqibah and Elaine.Meet E first,when to top up my fare card.I hate this Cheena woman.Urghh,When to the Mrt station to top up.Meet Naqibah after that.Train to Airport.They keep bullying me in the train.When to take the shuttle bus to Budget Terminal.They ask so much about Budget Terminal.And they bus ride to there was extremly bumpy.Meet babe.When over to sit at Macs with her Mum,Cousin,and Uncle.Talk talk talk,her cousin is extremly funny,she keep touching people hair.HAHA,She check in,I will miss you.When back to T2.Then when to T3 to eat Popeyes,After Popeyes we when to have Starbucks.Yayyy,Chocolate Chip Cream <3,talk>

I wish everyone would be happy. No broken hearts and no more tears.

Today,Service was abit boring.But I like the songs today ^^Thank you Mere for the big big hug :) I sit besdie Josiah today,And he keep complaining.HAHA,I keep laughing with him.He said Clara work in Gelyang o mean.I saw J today,I didn't expect to know that you change.But it good you still rememeber me.But if I didn't drag.Everything will be different by now.But it look like you're happy.So I should be happy too.Sigh,When to sit down at some place with Clara.Have a heart-to-heart talk :) I can't wait for Musical.Babeee,is flying off tomorrow :( and she going for a long long time.How can you leave me here all alone.I missz you.and Josiah,I'm not love sick.

There so many things I want to share with you.But I can't.Because,someone is in the way.I can't do anything.I always missz telling you everything.I missz the time when I told the truth to you.But I didn't want accpet the truth.In the end,I got hurt.Is glad see-ing you being happy with that person.When I heard stories about what you did for her,Is sweet.Sigh,But I can't do anything.I missz the time when you held my hand.Is like,the whole world has gone.But you stood by me.I miss you.

Just take the stick of cigarette and start smoking,Grab the Vodka and drink till you're a drunk.Don't think of what is going to happen next.Live life to the max.Ditch the one who hurt you,Love the one who cherish you.Make out infront of your ex,Cry like there no tomorrow.Scream like there no one in this world to hear.

Some will make a moment feel like forever. But the people who really change your life are the ones that make forever, feel like a moment.

OMFG,Watch this. http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/news/35250.html the woman is extremly mean and violence.HAHA,I wonder why the man even let her do it.I think some people comment about the video is true.Seriously,Watch it or you will regret it.I think preverts should deserve it.

Meet Rachel,for sun tanning today.I shall name her my sun-tanning buddie ^^,Meet her at aroun 10 plus.Bus down to SIA Sport Club.Lend her my sister membership.When to get change.The sun was damn awesome.We sun-tan for awhile.After that we when to swim.After swimming.When back to TANNING AGAIN.When to shower and some stuff.Eat at Astons.After that we when to take a bus to Simei.From Simei we took a Mrt to Tampines.Watch New Moon.OMFG,TAYLOR LAYTNER IS FREAKING HOT.I'm jealous of Bella,She can touch Jacob HOT BODY.During half-way the show,I wanted to go to the toilet.But we were sitting at the very corner.So I didn't go.The ending was stupid,Edward was like will you marry me Bella.I wil rate this show 4/5.I like TAYLOR LAYTNER in the show.Hot like shit.I run out of the cinema,Because I needed toilet.Bump onto ShuXin and Jovy.Jovy was extremly blur.When to walk around.Train home with Rachel.I got sun-burn on my Face,Hand,Body and leg,and everywhere.You can see the sport ___ mark.I wanted it so long ^^ We're going tanning again.

In the end,What will you pick?

To give up,Or to not Give up?

If You Really Love Something Set It Free.

If It Comes Back It's Yours,

If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be

But you're never there when I need it.

Was suppose to send Chanel off.But Joanna overslept.HAHA,So we didn't.Stupid Chanel.One goodbye also don't have.Never mind.When you come back from BangKok.I will sure kill her.Meet Debra,To collect my clothes from her.She said why didn't I date her out.HAHA,I promise you soon okaaya :) Train down to meet Joanna.When to Airport.When to Macs first.Ate,and talk for awhile.Walk around,When to Candy Empire and bought sweets.When to the fountain and sat.When to play the sky train.Something funny happen.Which I'm not going to said.Talktalktalk,Left around 5 plus.Jamie called me to meet her at East Coast Park,I super dumb,I drop at Chanel Chalet there and I walk all the way to Macs there.Freaking far,Bought Subway and home.Meet Daddy and Mummy.I want to go JB.Maybe I be going with Cherilynn and Malcom on the tuesday ^^ We are going to do our Nailz,Shopping,Movies,Food,Starbucks.Yayyy,Finally I can meet Malcom.HAHAH.I missz them.I can't wait.HAHAH.

If you were a song,I will put you on replay.

Happy Sweet Sex-Teen Chanel Kwan Lu Ting.

You're finally Sex-Teen.After so long.

You can watch NC-16 show already.Because now they are showing a lot of it.

Don't worry when we turn 18 we go "Play" togther again okay.

Don't worry 2 years will pass very fast.I will drag you by the ear to go "Play" with me ^^

and I'm putting Sex-Teen picture of You!

I still like to call you a lot of weirdweird name like HORNY CHEENA BULL.

iie lurbzzz uue :)

Loveeee Sharon.

Heeyy.

Ohh oh oh.

Ohh no oh no.

Whooaa oh no

Oh no ohh.

Ohh oh oh

Ohh.

Looking at you now I can tell

That you in your new relationship ain't going well.

There's no reason your name should come up on my cell.

Unless your unhappy, but that shouldn't be the case.

Cause you said, said he was the one baby yes you said,

Said you were in love, cause...

When you left me you said that you wouldn't be

Coming back remember that, but I never agreed.

I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,

Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night

But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,

Cause I can't take you back,

No, my heart won't let me.

Girl, you know he can't touch like I do,

I don't see you trippin or flippin over his moves.

It don't take a genius to see he ain't that dude.

But you let him back,

You don't know what you was on when you said,

Said he was the one, baby yes you said,

Said you were in love, cause...

When you left me you said that you wouldn't be

Coming back remember that, but I never agreed.

I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,

Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night.

But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,

Cause I can't take you back

No, my heart won't let me.

If there are hard times it seems,

But you ain't gettin no sympathy,

No baby not from me,

Cause I told you you should never leave.

See you chose this road So you gotta go it alone

Remember I told you so.

I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,

Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it

but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night. But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,

Cause I can't take you back,

No, my heart won't let me. Can't take you back, noo.

Ohhhh

Oh no oh, oh

Noo.

Told you so-Jesse Mccartney

3rd Dec '09When over to meet my sister first at Chanel bus stop.Saw Cat.When opposite with my sister.Took what I needed.Rush over to Chanel house.Get change and stuff.Bus to Safra,and J told us that we got to come and 10 only.Then we were like wtf.So bus to Bedok Inter.Keep calling people to ask whether they are free to keep my clothes first.Then luckily Debra was free.Pass to her.Everyone was looking at Chanel and me.When to take mrt.The door almost close on me.Because I was wearing heels.Then my stupid heels very annoying.Lucky I ran in.Everyone was staring at me.Super annoying.Train down to Tanjong Pager.Meet Joanna.When to eat at Kopi Alley first.Something stupid happen there.I wore wrong side of my heels and walk.They keep laughing.When to find "Play" first.Joanna and me were wearing heels.Our heels can kill us.Freaking pain.Finally Nicole came.Walk over to "Play",Then so embrassing.I was walking to another side when all of them are about to cross.And I think this B wanted to tell me.But luckily I turn back.Actually it was the opposite side.Cross over.The queue started to get longer.So Chanel and Joanna don't have IC.So Nicole and me when in first.I was super happy becasue I can go seek in.So Nicole IC was with Chanel so she when to take.Then I was waiting inside for them.Then I think this B think I'm her friend.HAHA.Nicole came in,When to borrow IC from Nicole friend.Joanna couldn't come in.Because,the IC is Chinese and she don't look like Chinese.So she got to go home :( Nicole friend's introdue us to some of their friends.Nicole was super tricky.She make me take photo with this bung.I can't remember what her name.But she was one of our friend.We drink Vodka Ribena.22 Bucks for one big Jar.Share.Nobody got high yet.But the place started to get crowed.But I got to leave early :( Catch the last train.While walking I heard someone called my name.So I turn back and saw who.Is Cheyenne friend.Talk to him for awhile.Cab home.Was super.I'm so going back to that "Play Club" Nicole set arhz.We go again.Play is aweome \M/ Picture will look very different in colour.Because the lighting there very dark.

I realise,It December already.No longer November.29 more days till 2009 ends.Sigh,Why is everything moving so quickly.Why can't time stay still.I can't wait for Christmas.I should really go get my gift for people and list out the present I want to give and the people I want to give.How are you spending your Christmas.I want to spend it with my awesome friends,Really.Because it will be the very last time.Once 2010 start.Everyone will change.New Friends,New Life,New Teachers,New everything.But will you ever forget the time you had in your Secondary life.I will always remember :) Why can't Singapore snow.I want to see Snow.Snow City cheat feelings.I want to see real snow,Snow Flakes,Snow Man.But it won't happen.Last Night moon was really nice,Is Big and Bright.

I told you,I love you.But you didn't hear.